I am quite open that I grew up with an workaholic who would blame me that she can’t stay sober. I am not making secret that I have experienced 11 years of bullying on two continents. (White Americans were quite unimaginative in this area.)
Both affect me severely in my adult life but I am healing myself. My choice when it comes to modify my body as making it my own works because today I am feeling genuine gratitude for a lot of things in my life. I didn’t felt it before. I tried to force myself to feel grateful but there is a significant difference between now and then.
I have been struggling for a while where to go from survivor to thriver as there aren’t many resources for that. Yesterday I found a pointer and now I just need to keep walking.
Good luck to you on your own journey.